14 Sep 2025 4 min read

My Life in Ongoing Extreme Danger #3

Midnight on the Porch: One Wrong Turn and I’m Gone

It was around midnight when I woke to the sound of a man’s voice. A tall man—easily six feet—had stepped onto my porch and was standing over me, asking if I had an extra blanket.

On the surface, the request was mild. But it was midnight. He was a stranger. He was male, much larger than me, and I was asleep and alone. In that moment, I had no way of knowing if he was high, unstable, or violent.

And let’s be clear: you do not wake up a homeless woman in the middle of the night if you respect women, boundaries, or safety. That respect was absent.

The situation could have gone any direction. One wrong turn—and not even by me, but by him—would have been the end of me.

This is what ongoing extreme danger looks like. Not just one dramatic moment, but a constant condition where survival depends on luck, not protection. I am still alive tonight, but only because chance tilted my way. That is not safety. That is not protection. That is exposure.

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Why I’m Here

I am not here because of bad luck or poor choices. I am here because:

My ex-husband stole $20 million and the home I built.

I was trafficked and erased, left defenseless in court.

The U.S. government owes me $100 billion in reparations for its failure and complicity.

I am calling out the hidden Holocaust against women and girls—and I am right.

Those in power want me silenced. They force me into conditions where any midnight intrusion, any unstable stranger, could end me. That’s their strategy: plausible deniability by manufactured exposure.

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The Bigger Design

Most people in America are only one paycheck away from being homeless. Unlike Europe and many other countries, there is no economic safety net here. That’s not an accident—it’s intentional.

Over 60% of Americans now report living paycheck to paycheck in 2025, with nearly one in three workers having no savings left after covering their basic expenses. If you lose your job, you lose your survival. In America, if you lose your job, you die.

I live this every day. I call out for help constantly—in person, online, everywhere. And again and again, people tell me: “I can’t help you. I’d lose my job.”

Think about that. My life is in danger, and the answer is: better she die than I risk losing my paycheck. That’s not just indifference—that’s how the system is designed. Keep people so precarious that they will watch a woman be erased, tortured, starved, endangered, rather than risk their own survival.

And here’s the brutal truth: there is no such thing as an ethical employer in America. I’ve been an employer many times. But how can you be ethical if, when you fire someone, they lose their housing and die? That’s slavery. If your employee’s survival depends entirely on their obedience to you, then you are not their boss, you are their master. And slavery is wrong. Americans have chosen to make employment indistinguishable from slavery by denying an economic safety net.

We can afford an economic safety net. The U.S. is one of the richest countries in the world. What we can’t afford is the lie that keeping people terrified and obedient equals freedom. A country without a safety net is not free—it’s a prison camp disguised as an economy.

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Evidence & Resources

Homeless women face extraordinary risk: studies show women on the street experience sexual violence at far higher rates than housed women. In some studies, over 90% report lifetime sexual assault.

One paycheck away: Over 60% of Americans live paycheck to paycheck in 2025; about a third have no savings left after bills.

Eviction risk: Women face higher eviction risk than men, with Black and Latinx women hit hardest.

Homelessness is rising: In 2024, more than 1.1 million people were served by homeless response systems—a 12% increase in just one year.

And with all American data, we must conclude: these numbers are low. My story has been systematically erased. So have the stories of millions of women like me. The reality is far worse than the statistics admit.

-Call to Action

What kind of country lets this happen? What kind of system forces us to live one paycheck away from death?

I can tell you, because it's obvious, one that thinks all 340 million of its citizens are so stupid and weak, they can walk all over us, destroy our lives, steal our freedom, lie about everything, and then we'll just bend over and take it and bow to their nastiness and hidden violence.

You fucking idiots.

Rise up.

No one can rule you if you don’t allow them to rule you. Do not stand for this. Do not stand for the lies.

Fight for better lives. Stop being victims, flopping around helpless while overlords grind us down. Look at me. Learn from me.

Fight.--

This essay is part of the ongoing series My Life in Ongoing Extreme Danger. Each entry is both testimony and evidence. Read earlier parts here: